Looking for the meaning!!

I’m person motivated by purpose ,when i don’t find meaning in what i do ,that’s drives me crazy!!

I don’t know ,every time i need to stop becoz i can’t keep doing this without that meaning n motivation inside me but some voice inside ma head keeps insisting that i should do that ,why? i dunno ,it seems that i need to stop trying making sense of everything becoz some thingz r just meant to happen for a reason may be i dunno now but i will know it eventually InshaAllah,i hope so !!